Everyday and every night, this feeling I'd fight
Try as I might but I won't win, I surrender, I'd die
You are winning here alright
Every morning when the sun would shine on me
I'd flash a smile but deep inside
I feel so sad and lonely
I need you here and now
I miss you
It's crazy to pretend that I don't think of you
The more this feeling just seems to grow and grow
I miss you
Oh how much longer can I hold on to
Maybe you can come and tell me that you miss me too
Miss you…
All I want is for this love to last forever
You walked away, never came back, oh I tried to recover
I can't bear it boy alright
When I hear a song that we had used to share
I'll try as I might to hide the tears, and when the pain is over
I'll wish that you are near
I miss you
It's crazy to pretend that I don't think of you
The more this feeling just seems to grow and grow
I miss you
Oh how much longer can I hold on to
Maybe you can come and tell me that you miss me too
Miss you…
October 24, 2011
October 22, 2011
A Drop in the Ocean ~ Ron Pope
A drop in the ocean,
A change in the weather,
I was praying that you and me might end up together.
It's like wishing for rain as I stand in the desert,
But I'm holding you closer than most,
'Cause you are my heaven.
I don't wanna waste the weekend,
If you don't love me, pretend
A few more hours, then it's time to go.
And as my train rolls down the East coast,
I wonder how you keep warm.
It's too late to cry, too broken to move on.
Still I can't let you be,
Most nights I hardly sleep.
Don't take what you don't need, from me.
Just a drop in the ocean,
A change in the weather,
I was praying that you and me might end up together.
It's like wishing for rain as I stand in the desert,
But I'm holding you closer than most,
'Cause you are my heaven.
Misplaced trust and old friends,
Never counting the regrets,
By the grace of God, I do not rest at all.
and New England as the leaves change;
The last excuse that I'll claim,
I was a boy who loved a woman like a little girl.
Still I can't let you be,
Most nights I hardly sleep,
Don't take what you don't need, from me.
Just a drop in the ocean,
A change in the weather,
I was praying that you and me might end up together.
It's like wishing for rain as I stand in the desert,
But I'm holding you closer than most,
'Cause you are my
Heaven doesn't seem far away anymore no, no
Heaven doesn't seem far away.
Heaven doesn't seem far away anymore no, no
Heaven doesn't seem far away.
A drop in the ocean,
A change in the weather,
I was praying that you and me might end up together.
It's like wishing for rain as I stand in the desert,
But I'm holding you closer than most,
'Cause you are my heaven.
You are my heaven
A change in the weather,
I was praying that you and me might end up together.
It's like wishing for rain as I stand in the desert,
But I'm holding you closer than most,
'Cause you are my heaven.
I don't wanna waste the weekend,
If you don't love me, pretend
A few more hours, then it's time to go.
And as my train rolls down the East coast,
I wonder how you keep warm.
It's too late to cry, too broken to move on.
Still I can't let you be,
Most nights I hardly sleep.
Don't take what you don't need, from me.
Just a drop in the ocean,
A change in the weather,
I was praying that you and me might end up together.
It's like wishing for rain as I stand in the desert,
But I'm holding you closer than most,
'Cause you are my heaven.
Misplaced trust and old friends,
Never counting the regrets,
By the grace of God, I do not rest at all.
and New England as the leaves change;
The last excuse that I'll claim,
I was a boy who loved a woman like a little girl.
Still I can't let you be,
Most nights I hardly sleep,
Don't take what you don't need, from me.
Just a drop in the ocean,
A change in the weather,
I was praying that you and me might end up together.
It's like wishing for rain as I stand in the desert,
But I'm holding you closer than most,
'Cause you are my
Heaven doesn't seem far away anymore no, no
Heaven doesn't seem far away.
Heaven doesn't seem far away anymore no, no
Heaven doesn't seem far away.
A drop in the ocean,
A change in the weather,
I was praying that you and me might end up together.
It's like wishing for rain as I stand in the desert,
But I'm holding you closer than most,
'Cause you are my heaven.
You are my heaven
October 17, 2011
How Stupid I am?
How many times that I cried over a guy? A lot.
How many guys? Three. Past. Past. Present.
First?
A guy whom everyone love.
A guy who will make people turn their head whenever he walks by.
A guy who will probably never know that I exist.
Over than three years,
which make me sounds more stupid.
I felt like I fell in love right here, and there.
But isn't it JUST a puppy love?
Second?
A guy that my OWN friend really loves.
I felt like someone stab a knife into my heart,
when people cheered for them, for fun.
It was only one time. Just once.
He was just a crush, isn't he?
Third?
Started as friend. Then dated. Then stranger.
Then friend again.
A guy who is really nice and kind.
A guy who has smile that makes my heart skipped a beat.
But why he has to have different faith than I am?
That is what make things more complicated than it already is.
Sooooooo....... how stupid I am?
How many guys? Three. Past. Past. Present.
First?
A guy whom everyone love.
A guy who will make people turn their head whenever he walks by.
A guy who will probably never know that I exist.
Over than three years,
which make me sounds more stupid.
I felt like I fell in love right here, and there.
But isn't it JUST a puppy love?
Second?
A guy that my OWN friend really loves.
I felt like someone stab a knife into my heart,
when people cheered for them, for fun.
It was only one time. Just once.
He was just a crush, isn't he?
Third?
Started as friend. Then dated. Then stranger.
Then friend again.
A guy who is really nice and kind.
A guy who has smile that makes my heart skipped a beat.
But why he has to have different faith than I am?
That is what make things more complicated than it already is.
Sooooooo....... how stupid I am?
And I'm sure that...
Do you know that I'm scared?
I'm scared of falling too deep for you. I'm scared of losing you. I'm scared of hurting you, which I constantly do.
Why I choose to stay away?
Because I think we are better this way, as a stranger. Because in the end, I really hope it won't hurt as much as today.
Someday, I hope I'll see you happy with a girl who deserve you. The one that will never hurt you like I did.
And I'm sure that I'll miss you. I'll miss everything about you.
I'm scared of falling too deep for you. I'm scared of losing you. I'm scared of hurting you, which I constantly do.
Why I choose to stay away?
Because I think we are better this way, as a stranger. Because in the end, I really hope it won't hurt as much as today.
Someday, I hope I'll see you happy with a girl who deserve you. The one that will never hurt you like I did.
And I'm sure that I'll miss you. I'll miss everything about you.
October 09, 2011
Random
People planning to take certain major in college. And their strategy to apply so they can be accepted by their dream college or university.
What do I do? Planning what I would do while I'm in college. Yeah, I know. But at least I have something ;)
So far, I got four. I want to get an international diving certificate and learn a third (and four if it's possible) languages. Because I didn't have a chance in high school. I will also finish my violin lesson. And vocal. I already started it, I should finish it. I would like to try playing drums.
Musician husband? Yes, please. A classic pianist, a violinist, or drummer would be nice ;)
Or the one who loves to cook.
Whaaaat? A girl can dream, right? ;P
Fast Life
No, it's not about Joe Jonas solo album. Although, I would love to buy it when it came to Indonesia ;)
Anyway, the time is ticking. Faster than I thought. If I am normal, I would be rushing out and moving on like everybody else instead of sitting down and watch.
I feel like everything wanted to be done by the end of this month. Yea, I know, I should have started it months ago before it even being announced.
I'm in 12th grade! My brain should work as a 17-18 years old. Not a 10 years old little girl anymore.
And why now I seems like I don't care at all? I was so excited before.
Is it because of the numbers? the words? the quality?
There is only a little chances in everything.
Questions come to my mind instantly.
How bad I want this?
How far I'm willing to try?
Do I even want it in the first place?
Do I even try?
What I want? A price? A trip? A "name"? Showing off and tell people that I can?
Is it the place?
Or is it the past?
Can I race out with the clock?
Or lost without even try to fight?
Anyway, the time is ticking. Faster than I thought. If I am normal, I would be rushing out and moving on like everybody else instead of sitting down and watch.
I feel like everything wanted to be done by the end of this month. Yea, I know, I should have started it months ago before it even being announced.
I'm in 12th grade! My brain should work as a 17-18 years old. Not a 10 years old little girl anymore.
And why now I seems like I don't care at all? I was so excited before.
Is it because of the numbers? the words? the quality?
There is only a little chances in everything.
Questions come to my mind instantly.
How bad I want this?
How far I'm willing to try?
Do I even want it in the first place?
Do I even try?
What I want? A price? A trip? A "name"? Showing off and tell people that I can?
Is it the place?
Or is it the past?
Can I race out with the clock?
Or lost without even try to fight?
October 02, 2011
Vacation; #10 "Back Home via Denpasar"
~September 2, 3, and 4
I slept through the ride. Really. I was really tired. I think this vacation was really tiring. Far more tiring than a few summer back. When we went to a country which was more far away than Australia. Hmm...
After a long time I haven't had a delicious Padang food, I finally got one in Bali. Yay! It's been a loooooooooooooong time... I miss it so bad.
I basically did nothing. Just lay down and watched TV. I just wanna rest. I wanna go back home. But unfortunately, I'll never go back. I can't go back to the past. Not anymore. I just have to face it and move on...
I slept through the ride. Really. I was really tired. I think this vacation was really tiring. Far more tiring than a few summer back. When we went to a country which was more far away than Australia. Hmm...
After a long time I haven't had a delicious Padang food, I finally got one in Bali. Yay! It's been a loooooooooooooong time... I miss it so bad.
I basically did nothing. Just lay down and watched TV. I just wanna rest. I wanna go back home. But unfortunately, I'll never go back. I can't go back to the past. Not anymore. I just have to face it and move on...
Mad World ~ Gary Jules
All around me are familiar faces
Worn out places, worn out faces
Bright and early for their daily races
Going nowhere, going nowhere
Their tears are filling up their glasses
No expression, no expression
Hide my head I want to drown my sorrow
No tomorrow, no tomorrow
And I find it kinda funny
I find it kinda sad
The dreams in which I'm dying
Are the best I've ever had
I find it hard to tell you
I find it hard to take
When people run in circles
It's a very, very mad world, mad world
Children waiting for the day they feel good
Happy Birthday, Happy Birthday
And I feel the way that every child should
Sit and listen, sit and listen
Went to school and I was very nervous
No one knew me, no one knew me
Hello teacher tell me what's my lesson
Look right through me, look right through me
And I find it kinda funny
I find it kinda sad
The dreams in which I'm dying
Are the best I've ever had
I find it hard to tell you
I find it hard to take
When people run in circles
It's a very, very mad world ... mad world
Enlarging your world
Mad world
Worn out places, worn out faces
Bright and early for their daily races
Going nowhere, going nowhere
Their tears are filling up their glasses
No expression, no expression
Hide my head I want to drown my sorrow
No tomorrow, no tomorrow
And I find it kinda funny
I find it kinda sad
The dreams in which I'm dying
Are the best I've ever had
I find it hard to tell you
I find it hard to take
When people run in circles
It's a very, very mad world, mad world
Children waiting for the day they feel good
Happy Birthday, Happy Birthday
And I feel the way that every child should
Sit and listen, sit and listen
Went to school and I was very nervous
No one knew me, no one knew me
Hello teacher tell me what's my lesson
Look right through me, look right through me
And I find it kinda funny
I find it kinda sad
The dreams in which I'm dying
Are the best I've ever had
I find it hard to tell you
I find it hard to take
When people run in circles
It's a very, very mad world ... mad world
Enlarging your world
Mad world
October 01, 2011
Vacation; #9 "The Great Barrier Reef"
~September 1
We're going on a cruise!! I was so excited. Really.
My sister and I sat on the deck. It wasn't that long until all our clothes and hair became sticky. Sea water -,-
The wave was not so friendly, so when my sister walked, she fell down. Haha *upss. Thankfully there was something to hold on, so I didn't fall. :D
I've been on a boat before. I thought I wouldn't get a sea sick, because I usually didn't. But maybe my condition or the weather wasn't that nice, so I got a sea sick. For the first time. Major headache. Feel like want to puke. But thankfully, I didn't. The ride was so long. Not really helping, buddy. And it was really cold inside. Brr...
What's for lunch?? Shrimp, bread, and fruits!! Yummm...... Closed with a cup of tea :) Oh yea, I changed into swimsuit before had lunch.
Around an hour after lunch, then it's snorkeling time! I never thought my size was for children, here. -____- Because we never done this before, some nice guy told us how to :). My first try? Not so good. The water keep going on my mouth and nose. I can't breath!!! But after a few try, I finally get used to it. Yay! aaaaaaaand I fell in love with it <3
Then, we went on a semi-submarine. I love the sea!!! After that, I went on snorkeling again. Alone. I'm freeeeeeezing, so were my dad and sister. The sea sick was gone! Good thing, right?
Today was: Wow. and tiring. But L.O.V.E it! <3
We're going on a cruise!! I was so excited. Really.
My sister and I sat on the deck. It wasn't that long until all our clothes and hair became sticky. Sea water -,-
The wave was not so friendly, so when my sister walked, she fell down. Haha *upss. Thankfully there was something to hold on, so I didn't fall. :D
I've been on a boat before. I thought I wouldn't get a sea sick, because I usually didn't. But maybe my condition or the weather wasn't that nice, so I got a sea sick. For the first time. Major headache. Feel like want to puke. But thankfully, I didn't. The ride was so long. Not really helping, buddy. And it was really cold inside. Brr...
What's for lunch?? Shrimp, bread, and fruits!! Yummm...... Closed with a cup of tea :) Oh yea, I changed into swimsuit before had lunch.
Around an hour after lunch, then it's snorkeling time! I never thought my size was for children, here. -____- Because we never done this before, some nice guy told us how to :). My first try? Not so good. The water keep going on my mouth and nose. I can't breath!!! But after a few try, I finally get used to it. Yay! aaaaaaaand I fell in love with it <3
Then, we went on a semi-submarine. I love the sea!!! After that, I went on snorkeling again. Alone. I'm freeeeeeezing, so were my dad and sister. The sea sick was gone! Good thing, right?
Today was: Wow. and tiring. But L.O.V.E it! <3
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